Faith Crisis? Start Here

I can't quite recall when it all started. The nagging feeliing, the restlessness, the anger, the boredom.

But by the by the summer of 2025 I was done. I was done with the status quo. Done with average. Done with paycheck to paycheck; done with the cage of the mundane.

I didn't know what was next, I just knew I couldn't stay where I was. I knew God had so much more for me. I knew there was so much more to life than what my physical senses could communicate to my brain. I knew Jesus was real. I knew Heaven was real, and I could see that I was becoming obsessed with entering into the Kingdom Jesus always talked about.

He said He was a door and I wanted to walk through it. I wanted to live at the level of Spirit...fearless, full of Power and Love and Self-Discipline (2 Tim 1:7) I wanted a closer walk, I wanted the peace of knowing that I wasn't just fantasizing. I wanted to be living proof that God is real and that we don't have to stay trapped in the visible world.

Over the last few months Holy Spirit has continued to train, teach and heal me, to bring me through that door.

Not just a Christian, but a New Creation in Christ

I have to admit I've never really related to the word "christian". It's a term that people in Antioch used for those first followers of Jesus (Acts 11:26). But it's not how God refers to us.

He tells us that we're "new creations in Christ", that we're the "body of Christ", or disciples of Jesus.

When Jesus left the Earth, He told His disciples to go and make more disciples. He didn't say to go make religion, or go make denominations..and yet that's what we have today. Over 45,000 different denominations of christianity.

One Lord, one Faith, One baptism,(Eph. 4:5) and yet we have over 45.000 different denominations? No - that makes no sense.

But understanding this basic difference between being a disciple of Jesus and a christian explains everything. A disciple is one who believes and follows the teachings of Jesus and lives under His Lordship in Holy Spirit.

"Christian" is someone who is saved, but is not necessarily living under the Lordship of Jesus, or following His teachings. Someone who may not even know about or believe in Holy Spirit. Jesus Himself asked "why do you call me Lord and yet do nothing that I say?" (Luke 6:46).

Living under the Grace of Salvation only is largely what's been taught in mainstream church over the past couple of decades, and the result is a Sunday social club with no demonstration of the Spirit or Power. We've got lights and music and fog machines, but the demonstration of Spirit? Power? Nope.

Holy Spirit helped me see all of this and it all helped me understand why I was so frustrated. I hadn't been taught what I needed to know, or what Jesus expects of me... Just alot of man-made tradition; and I found it all completely worthless. (Matt. 15:8-9)

Crossroads

So I was at a crossroads of my Faith.

Jesus said that if I seek first The Kingdom of God and His righteousness (His standards and values) everything I need for life would be provided. (Matt. 6:33)

Did I believe that?

And if I couldn't believe God to provide for me here in the seen world, how could I even believe that my soul was saved? How could I believe John 3:16? That my eternity was secure?

And so I started on a journey. I quit my job. I put all of my needs on God to provide, to walk me through the door, to give my life purpose and meaning by living out His plans (Jer. 29:11).

This blog is the journey of my Faith through the door that is Jesus into His Kingdom.

I'll continue to share what I learn, in hopes that it will help you avoid any of my pitfalls and detours on the path to living out God's Purpose for your life.

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